During the processes of working through grief and writing the book, Who Killed My Sister, My Friend, I was awakened to a different level of awareness. My senses were heightened. I saw through different eyes. I was experiencing the darkness of humanity and existence yet I was opened up to the beauty around me! There were times when I was in awe and times when I was in doubt. It was so strange! I felt like I had super powers. Today I realize it was then that I learned to really live and experience life fully. Food tasted different. I questioned everything. I needed answers and fulfillment and a purpose for my life! I opened myself up to other people’s beliefs and views while I was searching. I had to look at what my spiritual/religious beliefs were and where they came from, and I reflected on my beliefs about dying, death and what happens afterwards. I read inspirational writings, meditated, prayed, wrote letters to Cindy and “talked” to her.

In my next Blog I’ll talk about how grieving is like walking on a spiral staircase.

Melanie Hack
Author of Who Killed My Sister, My Friend
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The unsolved mystery of the death of Cindy James